If we were having coffee right now, I’m sure we’d be diving into the intricate details of our souls – it feels so necessary right now. There’s longing, dreaming, wishes to make plans for the future again, but uncertainty still looms in our lives for a while longer. This year has shown many of us an alternative way of living, and cleared the way to be able to live more gently – I hope this has been the case for you.
Every now and then an unsettledness builds, for we want and need more living space, but with the wedding being postponed it feels like other things have to go on the back-burner too. It’s an emotional tug of war; on one hand we’re grateful for what we have, yet it’s occasionally impossible to ignore that we need more space. The pandemic ushered in changes that seem here to stay, in some shape or form, and one of these is working from home – which gave us the opportunity to finally consider moving out of London. It sometimes feels like a merry-go-round for the emotions and mind, though; saving for a wedding leaves little left over for other needs and wants.
I find myself needing to re-centre, often, an act I’m getting much better at. It’s another thing this year – and therapy – has taught me. I’ve long known the importance of looking after yourself, before then focusing outwards towards others, but it’s been one of those recurring lessons for years. I think I’ve finally got it, completely, with every inch of my being. Thus, re-centring is one of those things that is easier because I do it more often.
The weekend has been full of little, cup-filling joys. The Christmas tree is up, casting a warm glow all day long. I’ve baked not once but twice – making banana bread and chocolate chip cookies. Yesterday we went on a woodland walk that was over 4 miles long. A bubble bath was had. The plants have been watered. Little things in their multiples are very lovely things, indeed.
My thoughts are firing off in all directions, but it’s hard to catch a thought and pin it down for long enough to form into something resembling any sense. This weekend has contained too much sugar and caffeine, perhaps. So, what has filled your weekend, friend? What has been going through your mind?
Weekend Coffee Share is a weekly virtual coffee date hosted by Eclectic Ali – you are welcome to join in.